I really started to struggle with what to tell and what to protect. I want to portray adoption honestly but I also need to keep my baby's best interest at the forefront of everything I do. Especially since I stupidly used my name when I started this blog long before adoption was even on my radar. I just haven't known what to share. But, I'm going to try to resurrect the blog with a slightly different angle. At least for now.
I grew up in a small town. That's really where I'm most comfortable. After college, I moved to Chicago and then left that for the suburbs about 9 years ago. In so many ways, I've grown up here. I am certainly not the scared 22 year old that moved here from small town NY and a corn field in OH. But the time has come to move on.
In a few short weeks, little Missy and I will be moving here:
Definitely going to be different than where I've been for the last five years:
It'll be so hard to say goodbye. My last day at my job is Tuesday. My job is exhausting on every level possible but I love my students and my co-workers have been my family here for the last 13 years. I still can't even process what life after E will look like.
I worry about Little Missy's adjustment. She has moved so many times in her young life. She has bonded so well. (Sometimes it feels like too well. She stays with no one but my parents.) I know that long-term this move will be so good for her but she doesn't really understand what the next few months hold. She loves school and she is so loved there. We have our Gigi's friends and a great babysitter. She adores my friends here and they have all been unbelievably accepting of her. So much change for a little heart that has already lost so much.
Even though there are probably a hundred reasons to stay, I know there are a million to go. Many of them being the tears that my daughter sheds when we pull into our driveway after a visit at my parents' house. She knows that Nana and Grandpa are far away. And she's not ok with it. She loves them and their animals and country life in general. Our reasons for moving:
The next step on Life's Amazing Journey is taking us to the country and my parents' small farm. I can't wait to update about life in the country and how this little girl thrives with fresh air, animals and lots of space.
And, who knows, maybe this move will lead to some other big announcements in the future. Stay tuned....